New kid on the writers block..(AND new EXCLUSIVE song)

need to vent so this is a long one...

For those of you that dont know me, im VERY busy in the week - i work a regular 9-5, i do a part time youth work job two evenings a week (no i aint got kids to feed, i actually like doing youth work - giving back to the community and all that! - plus I teach a music studio course and younger people have got an energy in a studio that is inspirational to me sometimes...) ...anyway, juggling two jobs, trying to maintain some sort of social life means that im hardly ever at home or if i am, normally after 10 pm. oh yea, i freelance quite a bit as well - my 9-5 is as an I.t network manager so I go around to other offices and stuff when required and do bits as well..so thats like two and a half jobs lol...

OH yea, ive got this whole music career to squeeze in as well aint I!! how do I do it??? well...basically, I dont sleep....a

no...really, I actually sleep on average about 5 hours a night and drop to sleep at 2-3am. The problem is, I never have been able to force music on myself - it feels SO unnatural to me to write a song at a specific time - I can go and produce a beat on call which is why I can film all that and make youtube videos but you probably notice, you never see me record the song straight away and thats because, i like to let the verses "come to me"...sometimes ill record straight after I produce the song, yes, but ive gotta be in that zone..alone...even without a camera in my hand...sounds corny but its true.

Actually, the only time i can "force" a verse on queue is when im in the studio with another artist but that feels more natural because we are just vibing and im bouncing off his or her energy...but with most of my solo stuff, the verses are in my head by the time i get in the studio to record.

ANYWAY...back to the point, so yea, normally I write FULL verses at some ungodly hour in the morning, with the light off, and my headphones on, straight after a verse has "come to me". OR I write random bits (like half a verse or even two lines) on my blackberry throughout the day then finish them off later...

This method still works out for me as verses "come to me" often (sometimes annoyingly when im trying to sleep and i have to wake up and write them) so since I been working with the producer Te1 (http://www.myspace.com/te1productions) on a joint album, he can give me a track on a sunday (our studio day) and by the next sunday, all the verses and the chorus of the song (amongst other random verses) wouldve "come to me" so we've been consistently recording on a weekly basis on that project, as well as me recording myself at my house on my own project.

recently though, ive got like 4 specific songs that I need to write to (two that te1 made and two that ive made recently - one of which called just wait - the making of that beat is in this blog somewhere).

This week though, ive written plenty of random bits and even one verse for two of the four songs - i even wrote a song i havent got a beat for yet! but nothing i need to finish, has been finished!....and now its friday night, ive actually got time on my hands and i would LIKE to be able to write and maybe even record something at home but nope...nothing...and I refuse to force it....its quite frustrating though...and ive got a feeling the songs are gonna come to me when im back in the thick of my busy-ness...thats always how it is...

So....im stuck, waiting for these 4 specific songs to "come to me"....so...if anyones seen/heard from "my 4 songs", tell them ive got a warm roof and hot food waiting, so they should come home!!

ANYWAY heres a song by my fellow musical spa, SHAX, called "making good music" and its sorta sums up everything i say - its only 2:31 or something so listen to it ALL to get the whole picture...

p.s you know the deal - press play below, if it stutters or dont play, pause for 10 seconds then unpause...

P.P.S there seems to be some kinda confusion - this song is ALL shax - I only recorded and mixed it for him - Shax produced, rapped AND sang on it!

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